At some point in your life it all comes to a crashing halt. You
realize you can’t do it on your own. No matter how much others try
they can’t help you either and the more you let them try the more
you hurt them. Nothing you do will fill the emptiness you feel inside
you. This in when people turn to things of the world to try to hide
the pain they feel and the pain they are causing the ones they love.
Drugs, alcohol, porn, money, partying, or maybe you'll try just being
a good person with shallow jesters of kindness and helping others but
not because it’s the right thing to do but because you want other
to look at you and say “look he's a good person, he must be really
happy” but none of it will make the pain go away. Sure you may fool
some people in to believing the face you wear on the outside and you
may even fool yourself for a while as you start to wear blinders to
the real world around you. Then one day you wake up and it’s all
gone not only the fake stuff but the real stuff too. Maybe it’s in
that moment that you think “life is not worth living and you just
want to end it all, you want the pain to stop” you’re looking for
someone to help you but your also looking for someone to blame for
your loss, your pain and your suffering. So often we begin to blame
God for what we are going through we say “God why have you done
this to me I've been a good person I don’t deserve this” I
sometimes here God saying to me “ Really?”, “ You denied me to
others, and yet I still came to you with open arms, remember all the
times you pushed away your family and I brought them back to you, I
have always been here for you and I always will be just believe in me
and trust in me” It’s in that time of darkness that God sent an
angel to lift me up and tell me it would be OK. Its then that God
said let go of your pain and anger; let me fill your heart with love
and joy. “But God I don’t know if I have the strength to do as
you ask”, I replied. “You still don’t understand and you still
don’t believe” he said. “Faith is so hard for me, I want to
have faith and believe but I don’t know how.” I said. “Open
your eyes and heart and I will show you I am God.” he said. There
is a difference between taking something on faith and knowing that it
is so. When God began to show himself to be, I didn’t become a
faithful Christian I became a knowing follower of God. The journey I
now take with God is not an easy one, it’s not always a one moving
forward I sometime slip and fall and have the ways of my past start
to drag me back but now I know God is with me and he is a loving and
forgiving God and will be there to help me back onto the proper trail
should I become lost.
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